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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 0:41:25 GMT -5
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Post by Fumbduckery on Mar 9, 2018 0:43:54 GMT -5
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Post by Fumbduckery on Mar 9, 2018 0:47:47 GMT -5
I just love his songwriting. Like this one. I love the sentiment of just a regular guy wanting to have a child that will be the greatest thing ever, that will never get old or die......
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 0:55:03 GMT -5
I just love his songwriting. Like this one. I love the sentiment of just a regular guy wanting to have a child that will be the greatest thing ever, that will never get old or die...... Yes! See that's beautiful man. I said before I prefer God music but I'll take anything human, real, genuine a real human being you know? I don't care about anyone's beliefs I just crave real and I get that feeling from him.
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 1:00:03 GMT -5
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 1:07:48 GMT -5
I try to like everybody but the only people I really connect with are people who have suffered in some way. Those with chronic pain, trauma, junkies, ex junkies. losers, the nuts. those who have had hard lives...they tend to live more in what I would define as reality, they have less ego, less of a mask so they are right 'there' on the edge of life.
I've had so much physical pain in my life I really have no ego, no games, no delusions or pretensions abut myself. I have been broken over and over in my life..I've been to hell more times than I can remember and while that's not always fun to say the least it does have some advantages in a way it's hard to explain. My life has been hell but I wouldn't change it for anyone elses.
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 1:10:04 GMT -5
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 1:18:49 GMT -5
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Post by TheCoronaManCometh on Mar 9, 2018 2:00:02 GMT -5
Now this tread can officially get started!
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Post by Fumbduckery on Mar 9, 2018 2:32:24 GMT -5
I try to like everybody but the only people I really connect with are people who have suffered in some way. Those with chronic pain, trauma, junkies, ex junkies. losers, the nuts. those who have had hard lives...they tend to live more in what I would define as reality, they have less ego, less of a mask so they are right 'there' on the edge of life. I've had so much physical pain in my life I really have no ego, no games, no delusions or pretensions abut myself. I have been broken over and over in my life..I've been to hell more times than I can remember and while that's not always fun to say the least it does have some advantages in a way it's hard to explain. My life has been hell but I wouldn't change it for anyone elses. I can relate--it hasn't been pain for me during my life, or me being broken or depressed ever, it's been at least 5 different times I've almost died, and two of them were extremely close. Once you feel that, where you believe you are dying, you know you are on the brink and can feel it, it changes you forever as a person. And I see it in the faces of others who have experienced it. It's a desire to be 100% genuine 100% of the time and get the most I can out of everything. I just don't have a few seconds to f**k away at any point, because I realize how valuable life is and that it can be taken away at any moment. So I approach everything I do as if it's the last time I'm ever going to do it. And I enjoy things that way. I see that in Simone, and I appreciate that about him. But I can get that from day to day people too who have had near death experiences. It's the reason I can't stand anything mundane on a daily basis, the little meaningless chit chat. I might be dead 20 minutes from now, I can't piss away time on idiotic meaningless chatter. Some people think it's morbid to think that way and I think the exact opposite. Because I don't walk around every minute thinking I'm about to die, I just know to put everything into anything I do because it all may be over any moment. A lot of music I listen to, other people think it's sad or depressing, but for me it's a tremendous release--rather than carry any negativity around with me, it's pushed out with the music. I can be around somebody 5-10 seconds and know whether or not I care to talk to them at all. Usually it's a no go. But when I do talk to somebody, it's going to be a great conversation because we aren't wasting time. As I've said, in my business I run I have to deal with people, and any time the person is worth actually talking to, by the end of the conversation they are blown away by our talk. And my online reviews rave about it. And it's because I care to make the most out of everything that I can. If I can tell right away a person has no depth to them the whole ordeal is quick and bam goodbye. But if the person actually has a personality, it's on! Always loved Leonard Cohen by the way. And I always thought Sinead had a wonderful voice. I didn't care on bit about her politics when she was making everybody mad because I didn't pay attention to politics then at all! And I shouldn't now.
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 3:58:40 GMT -5
I try to like everybody but the only people I really connect with are people who have suffered in some way. Those with chronic pain, trauma, junkies, ex junkies. losers, the nuts. those who have had hard lives...they tend to live more in what I would define as reality, they have less ego, less of a mask so they are right 'there' on the edge of life. I've had so much physical pain in my life I really have no ego, no games, no delusions or pretensions abut myself. I have been broken over and over in my life..I've been to hell more times than I can remember and while that's not always fun to say the least it does have some advantages in a way it's hard to explain. My life has been hell but I wouldn't change it for anyone elses. "I can relate--it hasn't been pain for me during my life, or me being broken or depressed ever, it's been at least 5 different times I've almost died, and two of them were extremely close. Once you feel that, where you believe you are dying, you know you are on the brink and can feel it, it changes you forever as a person. And I see it in the faces of others who have experienced it. It's a desire to be 100% genuine 100% of the time and get the most I can out of everything. I just don't have a few seconds to f**k away at any point, because I realize how valuable life is and that it can be taken away at any moment. So I approach everything I do as if it's the last time I'm ever going to do it. And I enjoy things that way. I see that in Simone, and I appreciate that about him. But I can get that from day to day people too who have had near death experiences. It's the reason I can't stand anything mundane on a daily basis, the little meaningless chit chat. I might be dead 20 minutes from now, I can't piss away time on idiotic meaningless chatter. Some people think it's morbid to think that way and I think the exact opposite. Because I don't walk around every minute thinking I'm about to die, I just know to put everything into anything I do because it all may be over any moment. A lot of music I listen to, other people think it's sad or depressing, but for me it's a tremendous release--rather than carry any negativity around with me, it's pushed out with the music. I can be around somebody 5-10 seconds and know whether or not I care to talk to them at all. Usually it's a no go. But when I do talk to somebody, it's going to be a great conversation because we aren't wasting time. As I've said, in my business I run I have to deal with people, and any time the person is worth actually talking to, by the end of the conversation they are blown away by our talk. And my online reviews rave about it. And it's because I care to make the most out of everything that I can. If I can tell right away a person has no depth to them the whole ordeal is quick and bam goodbye. But if the person actually has a personality, it's on! Always loved Leonard Cohen by the way. And I always thought Sinead had a wonderful voice. I didn't care on bit about her politics when she was making everybody mad because I didn't pay attention to politics then at all! And I shouldn't now." You get it all. You can pick up on it on others even online once you have been there as those people just tend to throw up less or very few walls. There is simply less ego there, less game. I can't put up an image of being a tough person, or edgy or any of those things as I've been on the floor screaming and crying like an infant too many times. It's that. I've done the near death thing as well many times and I highly recommend it, it completely takes away the fear of death. The woman I live with has been through it too and that's a huge reason for our connection. I tend to instantly connect with people or not too. My reasons are a bit different than yours but it all adds up to the same thing and comes down to interests. I don't think anybody wastes more time than myself and I tend to do less than anyone I know. lol "Still is Still Moving To Me." My doing nothing is my passion I guess and people can get in the way of that. I don't want to come across as thinking I am deep and profound or something and others are superficial. I don't feel that way at all about others I just can't really connect to the Matrix media talk. I tend to look like a dope around the masses as I never know what they are talking about or can't grasp the importance of it. I can even really care and love those people but have a hard time communicating with them. My sister is sot of the opposite of me that way. She likes money, possessions, she's a good person, a good wife, a good parent but very attached to this world so it leaves little to talk about. If people won't bug me and allow me to just sit silently around them I'm fine but as you know that's rare...it tends to make even family uncomfortable. They always try to draw you in to conversation and while their motives are good I just can't usually relate. Life can throw you weird curve balls man and I kinda dig that. The last 6 months or longer just about all my conversations or time spent talking has been with Muslims in particular one Muslim girl....and yeah I know right it's LOLOLOLOLOL something I admit I had a fair amount of prejudice against for quite some time and now here I am. I've read the Quran about 10 times in the last few months, the Hadiths, watching these movies on Mohammed, love the music and call to prayer ....I mean there is jut something so cosmically kooky about that I can't help but smile or outright laugh with the Buddha giggles. I feel like God is playing some weird joke on me....God has spiked the punch bowl kinda thing. And THAT more than anything is what I love about life..it's just so endlessly weird. Existence itself, I can tell you all about it...it's <damn weird and it makes me smile and laugh constantly. I think for that reason despite all the pain I've never suffered depression.
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 4:10:23 GMT -5
"Always loved Leonard Cohen by the way. And I always thought Sinead had a wonderful voice. I didn't care on bit about her politics when she was making everybody mad because I didn't pay attention to politics then at all! And I shouldn't now."
Yeah she's such a beautiful and bit of a tortured soul having a pretty brutal childhood. I've had the biggest crush on her since I was a kid. I don't know a whole lot about her politics. I do remember her she ripped up a picture of the pope many years ago and it sent half the world into a tizzy. I'm sure you already are aware but KRIS KRISTOFFERSON wrote a song about/for her called Sister Sinead.
I'm paying very little attention to politics and media these days too and I swear it's all just outrage media designed to keep everyone angry and in a bad mood. Go to left wing or right wing media it's all the same, telling us what we are supposed to be outraged about. It all paints a very linear ugly view of the USA and the world that simply isn't true. I don't want any part of their ugly world, I'll create my own reality.
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Post by jahgentle on Mar 9, 2018 4:11:41 GMT -5
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Post by Fumbduckery on Mar 9, 2018 10:12:41 GMT -5
When I say "wasting" time, it's funny because I waste a ton of time too, but as long as it's always on my terms that's fine. I think people need to "waste" time. I can waste 6 hours sometimes and not get a thing done and be just fine. But if I have to spend five minutes talking to some soulless nitwit who just wants to do the normal moronic jibber jabber it drives me right up the wall. That's what I like about my life so much is that everything is on my terms. Because I live that way and because I enjoy everything so much, I have no fear of death because I know I'm getting the most of everything all the time, and I've been doing that for 40 years now. These doofuses who are so wrapped up in the rat race and material things are so busy and so occupied they never actually enjoy anything. I know a lot of people like that and they're miserable every second. We've been very successful but I haven't had to compromise to get there. My daughter and her kids are going to be really well off after I die, and I'm really happy about that. We could do a lot more moneywise but I just don't need it. We'll probably travel a lot starting in the next few years, but that's about. Otherwise I'm cool with what I've accomplished and where I'm at and who I am, just digging it all and soaking it in as much as I can.
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Post by Fumbduckery on Mar 9, 2018 10:32:23 GMT -5
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